Who is the real you?

Don’t put on no show

I feel like people are very disrespect now days they always talking about they don’t care, they this and that but honestly me and you both know you really care. People just are putting on shows for no reason at all, trying to fit in a place where you not really wanted. Just try being yourself and stop thinking about what others think about you because at the end of the day that person mostly won’t be there to catch you when you fall. Be friends with people that are meant for you and don’t leave your true friends for somebody that aren’t really down for you they just using you. Be a Leader, Be you, be stronger. Because you know who you are deep down inside you just scared of letting out the real you. You should never hide your real personality because you never know who really like you for you and not who you try to be. You are a special individual. You were put on this earth to show off your greatness, and to show who you really are. It’s your time to shine. Let it be known who you is represent you follow your dreams and only think about the past for what you haven’t done. Don’t stress about the little things. BE YOU!

Are you mad at me?

Be mad for what?

What really makes me upset is when people is mad at me and don’t tell me anything so here I am looking stupid trying to talk to you and you just looking at me like I’m crazy. I mean if you mad just tell me why so we can fix it, don’t go behind my back and tell somebody else you mad at me without telling me first. You doing that make me think oh you not really my friend if you can’t even come up and talk to me. Because if we friends you should be able to tell me anything.  At the end of the day you know I’m going to always be there for you no matter what we going through. Don’t let a little fight ever break up your friendship because if it does that means it wasn’t real in the first place. Another thing why this make me mad because the main reason why your friends get mad at you is who say she say stuff. Half the time it’s not even true then at the end of the day you just lost somebody that really care about you because you want to listen to what other people say. Those people just hating on your friendship and what to break it up. Ask your friend if what was said is true or not before you point your fingers. DON’T BE MAD FOR NO REASON!

Do you lie?

Why do you lie?

Why do people lie so much I understand everybody tell a lie somewhere in life but do you have to lie everyday about everything and especial to the ones you say you love. I rather cry about the truth because I will soon get over than to be told a lie having you smile in my face and look stupid at the end of the day because I don’t know what’s going and I have no choice but to believe what you telling me. When I do finally find out the true and believe me you always going to find the truth one way or another. It will hurt me the most because you weren’t honest with me to begin with and it makes me feel like I can’t ever trust you again. The one lie you tell you are going to keep lying to keep up with that one lie that you told. So basically you are living in the past because you got to keep thinking about what you lied about and can’t enjoy life. It’s easier to tell the truth then to lie any day, when people lie to me it feel like our whole relationship was a lie. Of course I’m going to be mad about the truth but I have more respect for you because you were man enough to be honest. DON’T LIE TO ME!

promise letter

Can’t wait it’s almost over after this week we going to be in 4^th quarter My high school life is about to be over then it’s off to the big world. I’m just trying to make something of myself. I always told my uncle before he died I was going to be a doctor and buy him any type of car he wanted but since he is gone; I will buy is favorite car and paint it blue because that is his favorite color. This one for you I promise you I was going to make it through and I never break my promises to anyone I love with all my heart. After high school I’m going to college at Toledo University to pursue my dreams. I’m going to be making a lot of money being one of the top doctors there is. This is my promise letter to you uncle and I hope you still have faith in me to carry me through. I love you!

A poem to my uncle

TEARS FALLING

My tears are falling I don’t know why

Falling on my lap why is it hard to say Good bye

My tears are falling I need some help

Getting low and lower I can feel myself melt

No one understand me, no one cares people don’t listen when I try to share

I feel myself caving in WHY ME!!! Is all I ask when im in a bin

It crazy to me ever since you left I don’t have dreams anymore all I think about is death

I’m feeling low and depress

Can’t take this anymore wish my tears would be at rest

Where do I go

Who do I turn too

I wish somebody would walk a mile in my shoes

Today not a good day and I bet tomorrow won’t be better

Living life without you just make my days sadder

Who will catch my tears

Down to the ground I lay I know everybody lives in fear

My hearts heavy and cold like ice

Seeing your beautiful smile

Would be nice

I’m gone in a daze I can’t get out

I hope it’s a faze I try and I try, I scream and shout

I wake up in darkness go to sleep in more

One day I’m going to wake up in light, and see you walk in my door

But, until then my tears will continue to fall until we meet again UNC. As I always say, I will miss you most of all

Can't get help no where

Is the doctors really trying?

Maybe its jus me but, to me it seem like more people are dying in the hands of doctors than ever. They don’t try hard enough to me maybe it’s the education they are receiving but, whatever it is need to get better these are people life in their hands. An the doctors take one good look at you and say there nothing we can do or, he has 24 hours to live without even giving his body the chance to get a little more energy in it. My aunt friend just lost her 28 year old son due to a heart attack they told the family he has 24 hours to live this really bothers me because in 2010 they told my aunt who lost her husband the same thing. I know the doctors are only human and can only help so much but, will it hurt for them to run more test on their patient before determining  if this the end or can they live to see another day? A lot of people don’t know about what goes behind the hospital doors. Nurse, doctors and people in the medical field don’t really pay attention to what’s going on. There are a lot of medical errors that the nurse seems to be making. If they took the chance to actually pay attention to what they are doing I bet a lot of people wouldn’t be dead today. We can’t even trust are hospitals anymore it seem like their giving up on us. Is this how it’s going to be for now on? What is the medical field coming to?

Is it the heat thats making us go crazy?

Warm weather=crime?

Like most of us I love the warm weather but hate the crime. Why does it seem as though when the weather gets warm the crime rate goes up. Already this week the first warm day there was a crime committed the only way I feel safe is at work or in the house now days it not safe to take a walk on a nice beautiful day because you might end up as a innocent victim that got caught in a cross fire. Cincinnati, when will it end?  I want to walk outside in day light or if it’s dark outside without worrying about if somebody out to get me. I got to check my back the whole way home just to be safe, because you never know who is plotting on you. It’s sad to me that parents can’t even have their children go outside and play without having to worry about the people around them. Crimes are getting so bad that it happens all day every day. There is no safe place anywhere, we all live in fear. I just want to be able to have fun without worrying, is my family okay? Am I going to live to see another day or is this the end for me. Can’t we all get along? When will this end?